I got a new blog on xanga, as the vast majority of people I know are on there, but I was only able to get it on the condition that I allow Amelia to read it, so anything I don't want her to read will go here. my new blog addy I want to keep from a couple people, so email me if you want the addy...if you are wondering if you are one of the people I don't want on my other blog, then you can be sure I'll let you on...the people I don't want on it know who they are and why I don't want them on.

You are BigWig! Nice hair!


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I believe you belong in Pride and Prejudice; a
world of satire and true love. A world where
everything is crystal clear to the reader, and
yet where new things seem to be happening all
the time. You belong in a world where your
free-thought puts you above the silly masses,
and where bright eyes and intelligence are
enough to attract the arrogant
millionaire/prejudiced young woman of your
choice.


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You are Scooter.
You are a loyal, hardworking person, better known
as a doormat.

SPECIAL TALENTS:
Going for stuff.
LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE:
"Go For Broke!"

QUOTE:
"15 seconds to showtime."

LAST BOOK READ:
"300 New Ways to Get Your Uncle to Get You a
Better Job "

NEVER LEAVES HOME WITHOUT:
Coffee, clipboard, and Very Special Guest Stars.


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Which Bob Dylan song are you? Tangled Up In Blue

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I was thinking and thinking....how on earth can I express what I am feeling and thinking right now? Then I heard this song....amazing song, by Gavin Degraw. It exactly expresses how I feel ATM. So, without further ado, here is "Follow Through"


Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?
I haven't felt like this in so many moons
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction
As we are standing on our feet
So, since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
You to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
These reeling emotions they just keep me alive
They keep me in tune
Oh, look what I'm holding here in my fire
This is for you
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So, since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
You to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
The words you say to me are unlike anything
That's ever been said
And what you do to me is unlike anything
That's ever been
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You're so hypnotic on my heart
So, since you want to be with me
You'll have to follow through
With every word you say
And I, all I really want is you
(For) you to stick around
I'll see you everyday
But you'll have to follow through
With every word you say
An I, all I really want is you (For) you to stick around
I'll see everyday
But you have to follow through
You have to follow through
You're gonna have to follow
Oh, this is the start of something good
Don't you agree?

Today was my grandfathers' 75th birthday party. it was great, enjoyed immensely by all. Of course I alwasy love spending time with Mom's side of the family...it's always fun :D Took my mind off my depression, though, and now that I'm done with the day my depression is back. For a while I thought it was gone forever, but I guess I was wrong. I wonder if it will ever go away?

"Out Of The Woods"

I wish you out of the woods
And into the picture with me.
I wish you over the moon,
Come out of the question and be.

[CHORUS]
If this going to
Run round in my head
I might as well be dreaming.
Run round in my head

I rollercoaster for you.
Time out of mind
Must be heavenly.
It's all enchanted and wild,
It's just like my heart said
It was going to be.

[CHORUS]

[First Verse]

[CHORUS]



"The Lighthouse's Tale"

I am a lighthouse, worn by the weather and the waves.
I keep my lamp lit, to warn the sailors on their way.

I'll tell a story, paint you a picture from my past.
I was so happy, but joy in this life seldom lasts.

I had a keeper, he helped me warn the ships at sea.
We had grown closer, 'till his joy meant everything to me.

And he was to marry, a girl who shone with beauty and light.
And they loved each other, and with me watched the sunsets into night.

[Chorus:]
And the waves crashing around me, the sand slips out to sea.
And the winds that blow remind me, of what has been, and what can never be.

She'd had to leave us, my keeper he prayed for a safe return.
But when the night came, the weather to a raging storm had turned.

He watched her ship fight, but in vain against the wild and terrible wave.
In me so helpless, as dashed against the rock she met her end.

[Chorus]

Then on the next day, my keeper found her washed up on the SHORE.
He kissed her cold face, that they'd be together soon he'd swore.

I saw him crying, watched as he buried her in the sand.
And then he climbed my tower, and off of the edge of me he ran.

[Chorus]

I am a lighthouse, worn by the weather and the waves.
And though I am empty, I still warn the sailors on their way.



"Reasons Why"

Where am I today? I wish that I knew
'Cause looking around there's no sign of you
I don't remember one jump or one leap
Just quiet steps away from your lead

I'm holding my heart out but clutching it too
Feeling this short of a love that we once knew
I'm calling this home when it's not even close
Playing the role with nerves left exposed

Standing on a darkened stage, stumbling through the lines
Others have excuses, but I have my reasons why

We get distracted by dreams of our own
But nobody's happy while feeling alone
And knowing how hard it hurts when we fall
We lean another ladder against the wrong wall

And climb high to the highest rung, to shake fists at the sky
While others have excuses, I have my reasons why

[Bridge:]
With so much deception it's hard not to wander away
It's hard not to wander away
It's hard not to wander away



"Sweet Afton"
(By Robert Burns, Chris Thile just put music to it)

Flow gently, sweet Afton, among thy green braes,
Flow gently, I'll sing thee a song in thy praise;
My Mary's asleep by thy murmuring stream,
Flow gently, sweet Afton, disturb not her dream.

Thou stock-dove whose echo resounds thro' the glen,
Ye wild whistling blackbirds in yon thorny den,
Thou green-crested lapwing, thy screaming forebear,
I charge you disturb not my slumbering fair.

How lofty, sweet Afton, thy neighboring hills,
Far mark'd with the courses of clear winding rills,
There daily I wander as noon rises high
My flocks and my Mary's sweet cot in my eye.

How pleasant thy banks and green valleys below,
Where wild in the woodlands the primroses blow;
There oft as mild Ev'ning weeps over the lea
The sweet scented birk shades my Mary and me.

Thy crystal stream, Afton, how lovely it glides,
And winds by the cot where my Mary resides,
How wanton thy waters her snowy feet lave,
As gathering sweet flow'rets she stems thy clear wave.

Flow gently, sweet Afton, among thy green braes,
Flow gently, sweet river, the theme of my lays,
My Mary's asleep by thy murmuring stream,
Flow gently, sweet Afton, disturb not her dream.


I love Nickel Creek. I've listened to nothing but them for weeks. Chris Thile is a brilliant mandolin player, and mandolin is my favorite instrument. I have just obtained their first CD as Nickel Creek(as opposed to The Nickel Creek Band, which they were before) and a song on it has triggered another future rant post on christian music. Only I don't have time now, I have to go give Miki a shower.

Eveline by Nickel Creek

eveline grips the railing,
as her lover calls her to the sea,
won't you sail with me,
she can't hear,
being just a step away from,
happiness and sanity blurs,
and drives her crazier,
eveline take care of your father,
i cared for you,
words her dying mother spoke,
kill her too,
eveline stays


I'm lonely tonight

Yay. I spent all day organising my icons. And I'm not even done. What a good use for a day!{/sarcasm}

http://photobucket.com/albums/b49/Derringforth/

And Hurrah!! Says the crowd(of 3) reading this page, right? ;-) Today I went to church. Duh. As I go to church every Sunday, this is obvious. This week and last week I went to sunday school as the Bakers(Sr) picked me up. This time Amelia came, too. I love the Bakers, all of them...they are all so wonderful to everyone! Kind and sweet. They know about my AS(Mr and Mrs Baker jr do, at least), and that fact makes me more relaxed around them than other people. My social slip-ups won't reflect on my character, as they would for most NTs, because they know what's wrong with me!! Therefore I make less social slip ups with them than with other people. I wish it was "socially acceptable" to just out with my diagnoses right when I meet people, but if I want to make friends(which I have none of in real life) I have to be "normal" sometimes I get SO frustrated with NT society...it makes me just want to scream!! okay, rant over, or maybe more like "to be continued"

I installed a new hit counter. Sorry for the bad entries lately, I've been obsessing about those 100x100 icons and stockpiling them, some I'll put on here. Hopefully I'll be able to write something decent soon

http://www.explodingdog.com


Funny site